Grandeur Shortage of Wealth

I feel as though I’ve lost myself. A grandeur shortage of my wealth. Feel exposed with lack of stealth. Body is broken from deteriorating health.

I can’t stay focused throughout the day. Can’t finish my workouts. Just walk away. Can’t remember music. Forget what to say. Hands won’t stop shaking when I feel this way.

Sleep is a remedy I hope to use. Better than drinking or other substance abuse. Get into action. Life is what we choose. Best find yourself before your mind you lose.

Feel so goddam lonely when you’re not here. Unsure if we part ways or I call you, “Dear.” I know we’d be happy with all your cheer. A life without you is my biggest fear.